The Wonderful Writings!

Thursday 8:05 p.m.
                            When Baby Jesus arrived, it almost put me off my dinner!
                             I weeded the bottom half of one side of the allotment today. Only decorative flowers were left after the slaughter.
                             The consiglieri thought it was better to take out all references to the putative publisher of The Buddha and the Big Bad Wolf, so I've been doing that. This made me remember four or five years ago when I put up a webpage of the wonderful writings in the hope attracting an agent. It's less aggravation if you don't attract anybody. Much less.
                             I haven't look at the current crime book for a couple of weeks and I don't see how I can find the time for it, considering the amount of time I want to spend meditating, so I could consider the writing part of my life to be over now, at least for a while.
                              I have a body of work. I'm so glad I didn't end up writing  the four books for Fontana when this was offered to me twenty odd years ago. Because I've been so unsuccessful in getting anything published, it meant I tended to write whatever I wanted to write. The unpublished novels fall into three categories. Here they are in order of importance.
The Autobiographicals

ALMA MATER : Within this is a truthful account of what I studied at university.

ARE YOU BOYS CYCLISTS? This has a true account of my boxing experiences and the stuff about my wonderful writings is true as well. This one got published by Serpent's Tail.

THE BUDDHA AND THE BIG BAD WOLF   This is really as autobiographical as it gets. It's about buddhism and travelling in India and Nepal. Someone is interested in publishing it next year.

RaBlissBook:  I don't think I made up much about the first five years of my current job in this one! Almost as soon as it was finished, it got a literary agent, but he couldn't sell it.

THE NOVELS:

CITY WHITELIGHT. This one got published hardback by Mainstream and paperback by Fontana.

ANCIENT FUTURES: This one is available from Amazon Kindle for 86p, the lowest price they allowed.


THE REAL McCOY: I think this is my favourite. My ex-agent said he thought it was "wonderful", but couldn't sell it.

REMOTE CONTROL. Finally finished this just before Christmas, thirty years after starting it!

THE KIDBOOKS

LIGHT IN THE DARK: I expected to get this published since the kids at school loved it. The agent offered it to Puffin, but they didn't want it.

BUGTOWN: I tried to write something that I could sell. Kids loved it as well!


I could email any of these books for nothing to anyone interested except the published ones, which I don't have in digital form yet. But I do have forty odd copies of City Whitelight which have never been out of the wrappers. I would post one to you if you'd cough up a tenner!

That's ten books! That's not bad considering I was working for the vast majority of the time as well. Anyway, it's a body of work. Getting any of them published would just create hassle when what I really want is peace and quiet, and time to do the juju. The best thing would be to have a website and charge a pound to download a book. Nobody would download them and almost nobody would know they were there, but that doesn't really matter. It's a presentation of a body of work. This would really suit me much better than getting steamed up about being published. For the money you'd make, it's hardly worth the hassle. In fact, it's not worth the hassle.

            

The bliss is no hassle at all! It changes again and blossoms and blows your mind. Sometimes I think the bliss is certainly moving towards something and it must be samadhi. I'm feeling quite certain now. The lama told me once I'd get everything with just calming meditations and now I'm spending a much higher proportion of my time meditating on just nothing, or using a mantra, and sometimes just letting thoughts go as the bliss gets deeper and deeper, like an onion unpeeling itself. This is glorious! These are also mostly calming meditations. All the meditations are vastly improved over the past ten days or so. There's been serenity and peace in abundance. It's been a bit jaw dropping sometimes. A wonderment!

                      So I can't be bothered with the wonderful writings. If I got a webpage up, I could kind of seal away that part of my life, and get on with the next bit. Forget writing, forgot getting published, forget about all that. What a wonderful thing it is to be investigating the bliss! Why do anything else? Clear the decks! Clear the decks! What a fortunate creature I am, I am! What a fortunate creature I am!