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Thursday 23 June 2011

Home for now!



Thursday 9:10 p.m.
                             Matter is composed of particles, like atoms and whatnot. Consciousness is made up of moments, one following the other. If they are composed of different things, some might say they have different origins to the extent that mind does not come from matter, that mind and matter are separate things. This is interesting if you are dead, Jack.
                            I don't think it is interesting at all, Hotboy. Well, Jack, does your body have a mind, or does your mind have a body? You might only find that out when you are dead.
                            All this buddhist stuff would be far easier if you believed in rebirth, but as the sole member and single representative of the Disbelieving Congregation ... well, I don't believe in anything but ignorance. But we seem to be stuck with cause and effect. If you do something, something else happens.
                            If you meditate, eventually you will land in the bliss, and sometime later is seems that you will get the heat. Of course, all this would be much easier if you were a purified joe or josephine with a mindstream unaffected except by being asleep and being away, but if you are a disbelieving, drunken bum like moi, it still seems work as long as you meditate. Yes, it will take a bit longer no doubt, but it will still work.
                            It works best if nothing much is happening except when you meditate because that is eventful and dynamic enough in the great Vajrayana, the juju of jujus. But if you have to sally back and forth and necessarily be in the company of flatheids, having to be infected by all their flatheided anxieties and stupidities, it is better if you stay sober and straight and do not succumb to the temptation of thinking it's going to be alright, and that the juju will work anyway if you just live for long enough.
                            So tonight the home brew finishes and I will try to get into a sober and straight modus operandi from now on in because my time is not my own and it cannot be all about moi for the foreseeable. Tomorrow I'll be going back to Newmains for the night and I'll be there from Wednesday through to Saturday next week.
                            I so loved being up the allotment this evening. My precious space and place!! I had hoped to spend a great deal of time there on my ownio now that I have given up gainful employment, but will have to grasp at it whenever other things permit.
                            It felt like peace to me, Jack. Perfect peace.

4 comments:

NaNoSkye said...

Great pics.

Instead of taking down posts that bash the unfortunate ones, maybe just edit them. Or leave them.

See just what it is about messing up your head with the home brew that unbalances your state of mind.

Summer is not really happening up here to be honest.

Hotboy said...

Marie! You'll have to consider the long days to be summer then because winter will definitely happen up there! Hotboy

rob said...

Nanners. There's not much summer down here either.

NaNoSkye said...

Bucketing down rain this morning.

I like the long days, but I'd like some sunshine too. I'm greedy.